Saturday, October 27, 2007
Waiting and waiting...
Alone in darkness at
10:56 PM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Now I know where my heart is. Haha.
Not so sure about my mind though, but its definitely not on I&R.
Alone in darkness at
10:04 PM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
What the?
Alone in darkness at
9:24 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Its ironic isnt it? How you are at the hopsital beside your dying loved ones, yet, the only way you know how they're holding up is through the lifeless machine hooked up to their system.
As we all stared up at the fluctuating numbers, you could almost feel him struggling to stay alive, although he showed no movement whatsoever. In between praying and staring at his motionless body, we could only stare aimlessly at the numbers on the screen, and hope that the thin red line didnt go flat.
But eventually, he left us.
The numbers on the screen had returned to default. All lines were straight by now. But, he was still hooked up to a machine which helped him breathe. And the fact that his chest was still moving rythmically up and down certainly didnt help us accept the fact that he's left us.
We could only hope, that he knew we were all there for him up to the very last second. We will miss him.
Been thinking alot about deaths and funerals lately, after my grandfather's passing on.
Then I realised. It was never actually about the ones who's left. Its about the ones who they've left behind.
Its about closure.
And ultimately, its about moving on.
Alone in darkness at
1:35 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
You. Why is it that everytime I try to have a civil conversation with you, Im sure to be left regretting ever trying? I give up now, arent you happy?
And then theres You. You mean the only reason why you've been visiting your dying grandfather in hospital was because your com was spoilt at home, you couldnt play dota and had nothing better to do?
Atrocious. Thats just how this family is.
Im done trying. Just going to leave everything as it is.
I should be the one on that bed in the ICU. He doesnt deserve to die, I do. And I want to.
Alone in darkness at
1:06 PM
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Total darkness.
But even eclipses dont last forever.
The Sun will shine one day.
Alone in darkness at
2:23 PM
Now I know where my heart is. Haha.
